smileforwhoweare.blogspot.com♥
.2008年12月31日 星期三 ' ♥
♥ : 我的快樂
我的快樂
徘了徊了走了
錯了過了等了
累了倦了困了
煩了亂了冷了
都是真的 瘋的想的念的
不安的焦慮的 複雜的夢過的
擁有的失去的 怎麼忘呢
你坐過的沙發寬了 你愛的音樂停了
我等著你等成了 擺設
我的你的他的
好的壞的難的
灰的藍的黃的
酸的甜的苦的
都還記得 非常想遺忘的
絕對不能忘的 我想要換你了
真的不想要了 只得 瘋了
環島的火車載著我第幾天了
忽然發現這一刻我不想你了
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是你給了我的選擇
瘋的想的念的
不安的焦慮的
複雜的夢過的
擁有的失去的
怎麼忘呢 非常想遺忘的
絕對不能忘的 我想要換你了
真的不想要了 只得 瘋了
瘋了...
徘了徊了走了
錯了過了等了
累了倦了困了
煩了亂了冷了
都是真的 瘋的想的念的
不安的焦慮的 複雜的夢過的
擁有的失去的 怎麼忘呢
你坐過的沙發寬了 你愛的音樂停了
我等著你等成了 擺設
我的你的他的
好的壞的難的
灰的藍的黃的
酸的甜的苦的
都還記得 非常想遺忘的
絕對不能忘的 我想要換你了
真的不想要了 只得 瘋了
環島的火車載著我第幾天了
忽然發現這一刻我不想你了
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛得那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是誰給了誰的選擇
我的快樂 會回來的
只要清楚曾愛的那麼深刻 不准問值不值得
我的快樂 會回來的
離開不是你給了我的選擇
瘋的想的念的
不安的焦慮的
複雜的夢過的
擁有的失去的
怎麼忘呢 非常想遺忘的
絕對不能忘的 我想要換你了
真的不想要了 只得 瘋了
瘋了...
標籤： 歌詞
L愛ve ends @12/31/2008
.2008年12月30日 星期二 ' ♥
♥ :
what else can i say hey?
youve won. youve caught me. youve caught my feelings and emotions once again.
why do you always have to act so cool? dont you realise that im always there for you? i promised you.
and what im expecting...is only a little bit more caring from you.
would you ever consider why im feeling so low?
would you ever give in to what im saying?
would you ever care...how i feel, the tears i shed, the laugh i made?
would you ever remember...we are friends?
would you ever remember...that im always standing here waiting for you?
you know what...that is NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY!!!
i dont have to do all these.
but i CARE FOR YOU.
so stop thinking and focusing on urself.
when i had troubles were you there for me?
all you were doing was complaining how disappointing you were.
but i was, too.
the times when i broke up with him, were you there for me?
when there was only you, me, her, him and this other guy...
where were you?
you were sitting right next to him and her and this other guy...
left me alone...all by myself!!
would you stop..just for a second...stop caring about yourself?
stop being so self-centered?
no...you dont love me.
you didnt show me how much i mean to you..as a friend
you didnt ever show me once how much i care for you.
so you consider yourself as my close friend?
lets say, how much memories we shared together?
how much pain have i added to your shoulder?
and how much did you hurt me?
we referr each other as friends but WE end up hurting EACH OTHER!
im not writing this in the public is because i really do care about me.
and when, will you understand all those around you, all those who care about you?
when, will you learn to let go of your past?
would you ever learn..or just try to...care for people around you?
would you ever learn...or just try to...trust the people who are close to you?
you dont have to act so cool upon me.
you dont have to say im your close friend if you dont mean it.
friend...we are so call friends...but am i your true friend?
the conflict of you and HER, its not my fault. and if your willing to think rationally...
seriously, i shouldnt be involve into all these.
and I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT SHE SAYS ABOUT YOU EVEN IF SHE TELLS ME.
dont you understand that?
i have to admit, me and her are quite close now, but it doesnt mean i'll listen to everything she says to me.
just because shes my close friends.
I KNOW YOU LONGER. AND I KNOW YOU IN PERSON.
WHEN HAVE YOU BECOME SO SELF-CONCIOUS?
ME AND HER TALKED ABOUT THE GUY WE LOVED. NOT YOU!
you'll only lose more friends if you keep acting this way.
and no, if your wondering...im not leaving you.
because i still consider you as my friend, even if you dont care.
and you said i didnt care for you...
maybe its because i was hurted so bad that i lost the ability to care for other people at that moment?
and maybe its because i needed time to recover and heal my scar?
what about me?
what about my feelings?
in a way, i know im acting selfish, too.
cos all im doing now is complaining and being angry about things.
you dont realise...how much pain it was for me to end the relationship.
it wasnt like if you want it to end then the pain will stop and go away...
and remember what i said to you before?
our problem isnt the biggest. there are so many people who are in needed of help and we as christians should help them. if we start focusing on our own problems then our problem will be magnified and never ended.
pls realise this fact- i got hurt as well.
i didnt get the trust from the people who i was close with, and they chose to turn away from me when i didnt do anything, and giving me no chance to explain what i did.
it took me the whole full year...just to learn how to fogive and accept the fact.
and still, the scar was there and once i thought ive lost the ability to trust people who were close to me...
things came true and i started to hope for more, then they disappeared and left me with the darkness.
i was so lost.
i, as well, had the same problem as you do.
and allow me to stop by here.
and so after all these, we are still friends, yeah?
allow me to write this. and forgive me if you ever see this.
i feel so moody rite now and i have no idea how i can express the inner feelings, thats why i chose to write this.
im sorry if that hurt you...it wasnt meant to hurt you or lower your self-esteem...
but just telling you...how i feel rite now...
and just to express my feelings...
and that concludes what i have to say to you...
and next, i have to write to this other person.
yes, its you.
may i say, i feel so lost rite now?
you took it all away.
why did you end it off this way...making things so unclear?
you had to do this to me.
leaving me with all these question marks...
and what can i do, its not like im gona hate you...
but can i say...
YOUR SUCH A COWARD
you could say all things you dont like about me.
and you could tell me why you broke up.
but YOU DONT WRITE ME A LETTER AND TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME FOR THE LAST TIME.
okay?
AND IF YOU DIDNT MEAN IT, DONT WRITE IT.
it wasnt the fact that you left me hurt me the most,
it was the reason why you left me hurt me the most.
why couldnt you be honest with me?
i thought i WAS your girlfriend...
yes, after 1 month, it still hurts.
you left me with so many question marks.
you acted so cool upon me and seemed like you dont care anymore.
you know what i wana tell you...
IF YOU DONT CARE GO AWAY AND DONT EVER COME BACK AGAIN!
YOU DONT MAKE UP SOME RANDOM EXCAUSES OF WHY YOU LEAVE!
AND YOU DONT PRASIE ME IN THE LETTER.
AND YOU KNOW WHATS THE BEST TO DO- DO BE BOTHERED WRITING ME AND LETTER IN THE FIRST PLACE.
you dont tell me what a girl i was, and how much ive attracted you.
you tell me, honestly, why you wana leave...
look me into the eyes...and tell me you dont love me anymore.
you dont go and tell me that things are better for me if you leave me.
and you dont go and teoo me that there are guys who are better and suit me better.
i still dont hate you.
but im angry with the way you ended it off.
should i be proud because you'd bothered to made up excuses and actually told me something and ended it off in person?
should i be proud because you didnt do that to your other girlfriends?
DONT PLAY AROUND WITH GIRLS YOU DONT LIKE.
dont end it off and tell this one person you have no feelings for me and tell the other one you need to concentrate on your studies.
IM SO SICK OF YOUR LIES.
i have to be suspious...did you ever like me?
did i ever, mean something to you?
and arhhhhh...you just annoyed me soooooooooo much.
tell a person you dont love her anymore. its not that hard.
and if you love her, dont tell the others that you dont love her anymore.
how simple is that?
you told me you didnt worth it...
maybe it was true afterall.
BECAUSE YOU DONT EVEN CARE.
but you know what, i never regretted.
ive learnt how to love.
ive learnt how to care for people i love.
you gave me the chance to.
i started to realise how much i can do with you, and without you.
the strength i got from waiting for you, loving you and losing you.
i still miss you and love you...but just way lesser.
i dont wana hear from you anymore.
i reckon it'll take time for me to recover, and really forget about you.
but youve proven to me one thing...that you...and me...are impossible.
and im never meant to be with this type of guys like you.
maybe because im too anitsocial.
or just because we have a different path to life.
but hey, thx for the memories...even if it was only a lie...or a dream that i just woke from.
maybe afterall...my colours didnt turn to grey...
it was a chance for my colours to convert into some more beautiful colours.
i wont be loving you.
never will i.
the future is yet to be decided.
if things are working out well then maybe theres a chance of us being friends again.
but i dont care as much now.
i keep running toward to my goal while you run to your other goals.
this time i didnt cry...writing to you.
things have actually faded away if you dont know...
the reason why you left me i wouldnt know.
and i dont know if im gona hate you if you ever tell me the truth...
but i'll take what you said in the letter.
i'll still trust you...as the last thing i'll do to you.
me and you..an ended love story. something thats not gona be existing again...
when i have the chance to actually ask you for the reason...
i believe that by that time, i wouldnt care anymore...
and by that time, i believe i will find a better guy than you.
and when i look back now...i have to say that i've actually grew alot...from you...from her...from my friends...from my families...from other random people that happened to pop into my life...
more than one thing is going in my head rite now. and im so confused.
arrrrrrrrrhhhhhhh...sometimes i just want to walk off and move to my own little world...with no distractions..
seriously, im not in a good mood rite now...
some questions are yet waited to be discovered...
and some...are never to be know i believe.
i hoped and things turned their back from me.
i loved and people hated me.
feel so disappointing...with things occured and people who left footprints in my heart...
yet i'll find a way...sooner or later.
i'll find the true meaning of love..
the true meaning of life...
youve won. youve caught me. youve caught my feelings and emotions once again.
why do you always have to act so cool? dont you realise that im always there for you? i promised you.
and what im expecting...is only a little bit more caring from you.
would you ever consider why im feeling so low?
would you ever give in to what im saying?
would you ever care...how i feel, the tears i shed, the laugh i made?
would you ever remember...we are friends?
would you ever remember...that im always standing here waiting for you?
you know what...that is NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY!!!
i dont have to do all these.
but i CARE FOR YOU.
so stop thinking and focusing on urself.
when i had troubles were you there for me?
all you were doing was complaining how disappointing you were.
but i was, too.
the times when i broke up with him, were you there for me?
when there was only you, me, her, him and this other guy...
where were you?
you were sitting right next to him and her and this other guy...
left me alone...all by myself!!
would you stop..just for a second...stop caring about yourself?
stop being so self-centered?
no...you dont love me.
you didnt show me how much i mean to you..as a friend
you didnt ever show me once how much i care for you.
so you consider yourself as my close friend?
lets say, how much memories we shared together?
how much pain have i added to your shoulder?
and how much did you hurt me?
we referr each other as friends but WE end up hurting EACH OTHER!
im not writing this in the public is because i really do care about me.
and when, will you understand all those around you, all those who care about you?
when, will you learn to let go of your past?
would you ever learn..or just try to...care for people around you?
would you ever learn...or just try to...trust the people who are close to you?
you dont have to act so cool upon me.
you dont have to say im your close friend if you dont mean it.
friend...we are so call friends...but am i your true friend?
the conflict of you and HER, its not my fault. and if your willing to think rationally...
seriously, i shouldnt be involve into all these.
and I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT SHE SAYS ABOUT YOU EVEN IF SHE TELLS ME.
dont you understand that?
i have to admit, me and her are quite close now, but it doesnt mean i'll listen to everything she says to me.
just because shes my close friends.
I KNOW YOU LONGER. AND I KNOW YOU IN PERSON.
WHEN HAVE YOU BECOME SO SELF-CONCIOUS?
ME AND HER TALKED ABOUT THE GUY WE LOVED. NOT YOU!
you'll only lose more friends if you keep acting this way.
and no, if your wondering...im not leaving you.
because i still consider you as my friend, even if you dont care.
and you said i didnt care for you...
maybe its because i was hurted so bad that i lost the ability to care for other people at that moment?
and maybe its because i needed time to recover and heal my scar?
what about me?
what about my feelings?
in a way, i know im acting selfish, too.
cos all im doing now is complaining and being angry about things.
you dont realise...how much pain it was for me to end the relationship.
it wasnt like if you want it to end then the pain will stop and go away...
and remember what i said to you before?
our problem isnt the biggest. there are so many people who are in needed of help and we as christians should help them. if we start focusing on our own problems then our problem will be magnified and never ended.
pls realise this fact- i got hurt as well.
i didnt get the trust from the people who i was close with, and they chose to turn away from me when i didnt do anything, and giving me no chance to explain what i did.
it took me the whole full year...just to learn how to fogive and accept the fact.
and still, the scar was there and once i thought ive lost the ability to trust people who were close to me...
things came true and i started to hope for more, then they disappeared and left me with the darkness.
i was so lost.
i, as well, had the same problem as you do.
and allow me to stop by here.
and so after all these, we are still friends, yeah?
allow me to write this. and forgive me if you ever see this.
i feel so moody rite now and i have no idea how i can express the inner feelings, thats why i chose to write this.
im sorry if that hurt you...it wasnt meant to hurt you or lower your self-esteem...
but just telling you...how i feel rite now...
and just to express my feelings...
and that concludes what i have to say to you...
and next, i have to write to this other person.
yes, its you.
may i say, i feel so lost rite now?
you took it all away.
why did you end it off this way...making things so unclear?
you had to do this to me.
leaving me with all these question marks...
and what can i do, its not like im gona hate you...
but can i say...
YOUR SUCH A COWARD
you could say all things you dont like about me.
and you could tell me why you broke up.
but YOU DONT WRITE ME A LETTER AND TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME FOR THE LAST TIME.
okay?
AND IF YOU DIDNT MEAN IT, DONT WRITE IT.
it wasnt the fact that you left me hurt me the most,
it was the reason why you left me hurt me the most.
why couldnt you be honest with me?
i thought i WAS your girlfriend...
yes, after 1 month, it still hurts.
you left me with so many question marks.
you acted so cool upon me and seemed like you dont care anymore.
you know what i wana tell you...
IF YOU DONT CARE GO AWAY AND DONT EVER COME BACK AGAIN!
YOU DONT MAKE UP SOME RANDOM EXCAUSES OF WHY YOU LEAVE!
AND YOU DONT PRASIE ME IN THE LETTER.
AND YOU KNOW WHATS THE BEST TO DO- DO BE BOTHERED WRITING ME AND LETTER IN THE FIRST PLACE.
you dont tell me what a girl i was, and how much ive attracted you.
you tell me, honestly, why you wana leave...
look me into the eyes...and tell me you dont love me anymore.
you dont go and tell me that things are better for me if you leave me.
and you dont go and teoo me that there are guys who are better and suit me better.
i still dont hate you.
but im angry with the way you ended it off.
should i be proud because you'd bothered to made up excuses and actually told me something and ended it off in person?
should i be proud because you didnt do that to your other girlfriends?
DONT PLAY AROUND WITH GIRLS YOU DONT LIKE.
dont end it off and tell this one person you have no feelings for me and tell the other one you need to concentrate on your studies.
IM SO SICK OF YOUR LIES.
i have to be suspious...did you ever like me?
did i ever, mean something to you?
and arhhhhh...you just annoyed me soooooooooo much.
tell a person you dont love her anymore. its not that hard.
and if you love her, dont tell the others that you dont love her anymore.
how simple is that?
you told me you didnt worth it...
maybe it was true afterall.
BECAUSE YOU DONT EVEN CARE.
but you know what, i never regretted.
ive learnt how to love.
ive learnt how to care for people i love.
you gave me the chance to.
i started to realise how much i can do with you, and without you.
the strength i got from waiting for you, loving you and losing you.
i still miss you and love you...but just way lesser.
i dont wana hear from you anymore.
i reckon it'll take time for me to recover, and really forget about you.
but youve proven to me one thing...that you...and me...are impossible.
and im never meant to be with this type of guys like you.
maybe because im too anitsocial.
or just because we have a different path to life.
but hey, thx for the memories...even if it was only a lie...or a dream that i just woke from.
maybe afterall...my colours didnt turn to grey...
it was a chance for my colours to convert into some more beautiful colours.
i wont be loving you.
never will i.
the future is yet to be decided.
if things are working out well then maybe theres a chance of us being friends again.
but i dont care as much now.
i keep running toward to my goal while you run to your other goals.
this time i didnt cry...writing to you.
things have actually faded away if you dont know...
the reason why you left me i wouldnt know.
and i dont know if im gona hate you if you ever tell me the truth...
but i'll take what you said in the letter.
i'll still trust you...as the last thing i'll do to you.
me and you..an ended love story. something thats not gona be existing again...
when i have the chance to actually ask you for the reason...
i believe that by that time, i wouldnt care anymore...
and by that time, i believe i will find a better guy than you.
and when i look back now...i have to say that i've actually grew alot...from you...from her...from my friends...from my families...from other random people that happened to pop into my life...
more than one thing is going in my head rite now. and im so confused.
arrrrrrrrrhhhhhhh...sometimes i just want to walk off and move to my own little world...with no distractions..
seriously, im not in a good mood rite now...
some questions are yet waited to be discovered...
and some...are never to be know i believe.
i hoped and things turned their back from me.
i loved and people hated me.
feel so disappointing...with things occured and people who left footprints in my heart...
yet i'll find a way...sooner or later.
i'll find the true meaning of love..
the true meaning of life...
標籤： 心情
L愛ve ends @12/30/2008
.2008年12月29日 星期一 ' ♥
♥ : 受不了~
今天是2008年12月29日.
亦希我終於都受不了~~
我看到鏡子中的我....突然有一種 好想死掉的感覺~><
唉唷!!! 真的不想做人了~
想不到...三年前體重還不到40公斤的我...
三年以後居然變胖了這麼多` T^T
本來也覺得自己是怎樣吃也是這麼瘦的...
可是...可是殘酷的事實告訴了亦希...
三年以後的亦希真的變胖了~
唉唷...我再也忍受不了啦~
體重已經不斷飆升, 然後脂肪不斷地變多....
看著自己愈吃愈多...
真的忍受不了!!!
所以...................................
亦希正式宣布------------她要在2009年四月以前減肥成功`
把體重恢復到43公斤.
還有還有~ 肚子的脂肪要全部消失+手臂的拜拜肉要全部減掉!
否則把我殺掉好了 T^T
我正式向那些脂肪宣戰!!!
今次只許成功, 不可以失敗哦!!! *^^*
亦希我終於都受不了~~
我看到鏡子中的我....突然有一種 好想死掉的感覺~><
唉唷!!! 真的不想做人了~
想不到...三年前體重還不到40公斤的我...
三年以後居然變胖了這麼多` T^T
本來也覺得自己是怎樣吃也是這麼瘦的...
可是...可是殘酷的事實告訴了亦希...
三年以後的亦希真的變胖了~
唉唷...我再也忍受不了啦~
體重已經不斷飆升, 然後脂肪不斷地變多....
看著自己愈吃愈多...
真的忍受不了!!!
所以...................................
亦希正式宣布------------她要在2009年四月以前減肥成功`
把體重恢復到43公斤.
還有還有~ 肚子的脂肪要全部消失+手臂的拜拜肉要全部減掉!
否則把我殺掉好了 T^T
我正式向那些脂肪宣戰!!!
今次只許成功, 不可以失敗哦!!! *^^*
標籤： 雜談
L愛ve ends @12/29/2008
.2008年12月23日 星期二 ' ♥
♥ : 一
黑白愛情
一.
素看著自己手腕上那一道清楚顯見的疤痕. 她撫摸著那道傷痕, 彷彿那是她心裡永不復原的傷口, 雖然時光一分一秒地逝去, 可是她知道, 那傷口只會愈來愈清晰可見, 而別人的高談闊論, 只會在她傷口上灑鹽, 愈痛她愈清醒. 她的心, 愈破裂她愈明白到底她的愛情缺少了甚麼. 她閉上眼睛, 讓自己的心完完全全地破碎. 她知道, 痛多了, 就不再怕痛; 愛多了, 愛情就變得盲目. 那麼一切就在預料之中, 那麼她就不再痛.
哭得太多的她已經不懂得甚麼叫眼淚了. 當她再次張開眼睛的時候, 她看到的, 是灰黑的烏雲, 就像為她唱著哀歌, 紀念刻骨銘心的情愛故事.
一切的回憶都發黃了, 變舊了. 也許, 刺痛的感覺已經讓愛變成歷史.
也許當初, 她一開始的時候就應該學習放開愛,
也許當初, 她不應該這麼任性.
也許, 愛與恨本來就是連體嬰. 愛得多深, 恨得多久.
那是兩年前的故事, 素忍著痛緊握著自己的手, 一切的記憶, 開始慢慢呈現出來...
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「素, 生日快樂! 你猜猜我送甚麼作為你的生日禮物?」 文手捧著自己研究了一個星期的奶油蛋糕, 期待著素等會品嘗過蛋糕以後的讚美聲.
「謝謝哦! 想不到你記住了我的生日. 我真的好感動.」 素開懷地笑, 連眼睛都咪成一線了.
文看到素笑的樣子, 就感到滿足了. 自從認識了素以後, 他的生活變得豐富多采, 素的笑容和關懷已經把他原本的灰色世界塗成色彩繽紛的樂園.
「傻瓜, 你的生日我又怎會不記得...」 雖然初次遇見素的時候只是三個月以前, 但文可以肯定的是, 他已經完全地愛上了素了. 當他第一次看到素的時候, 他就知道, 素是他的唯一.
素無言, 只是含笑, 低頭看著文送的生日蛋糕.
「這個蛋糕好美哦, 你在哪買的?」 素細緻的臉孔上, 那雙又大又清澈的眼睛望著文.
「是我自己親手弄的, 如果你想吃的話, 我每天做一個給你吃也沒有問題!」文真心地說, 並在心裡對自己說, 要為她而學做最好吃的奶油蛋糕.
「那你可以教我弄嗎? 我想做給我的朋友吃, 他也很喜歡吃奶油蛋糕的!」 素聽到文的說話以後, 想起了羽, 便想給他一個驚喜.
「朋友? 甚麼朋友啊? 可以告訴我嗎?」 文覺得有點好奇, 於是隨口問問.
「噢, 沒事沒事. 只是一個普通的朋友而已.」 素搖搖頭, 罷罷手, 可是她那粉紅的面頰卻出賣了她了.
「是男朋友吧?」 文看到, 但卻假裝不介意, 故作輕鬆地問.
「不是啦! 我告訴你好了, 可是你不可以告訴別人喔!」 素笑得更甜蜜了, 完全察覺不到文的臉已經變色.
文點點頭.
「是素暗戀的人啦!」 文從來沒有看過素這麼幸福的樣子. 而素上一秒鐘所說的話在他腦裡迴響. 他完全不能思想, 腦海變得一片空白.
待續...
一.
素看著自己手腕上那一道清楚顯見的疤痕. 她撫摸著那道傷痕, 彷彿那是她心裡永不復原的傷口, 雖然時光一分一秒地逝去, 可是她知道, 那傷口只會愈來愈清晰可見, 而別人的高談闊論, 只會在她傷口上灑鹽, 愈痛她愈清醒. 她的心, 愈破裂她愈明白到底她的愛情缺少了甚麼. 她閉上眼睛, 讓自己的心完完全全地破碎. 她知道, 痛多了, 就不再怕痛; 愛多了, 愛情就變得盲目. 那麼一切就在預料之中, 那麼她就不再痛.
哭得太多的她已經不懂得甚麼叫眼淚了. 當她再次張開眼睛的時候, 她看到的, 是灰黑的烏雲, 就像為她唱著哀歌, 紀念刻骨銘心的情愛故事.
一切的回憶都發黃了, 變舊了. 也許, 刺痛的感覺已經讓愛變成歷史.
也許當初, 她一開始的時候就應該學習放開愛,
也許當初, 她不應該這麼任性.
也許, 愛與恨本來就是連體嬰. 愛得多深, 恨得多久.
那是兩年前的故事, 素忍著痛緊握著自己的手, 一切的記憶, 開始慢慢呈現出來...
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「素, 生日快樂! 你猜猜我送甚麼作為你的生日禮物?」 文手捧著自己研究了一個星期的奶油蛋糕, 期待著素等會品嘗過蛋糕以後的讚美聲.
「謝謝哦! 想不到你記住了我的生日. 我真的好感動.」 素開懷地笑, 連眼睛都咪成一線了.
文看到素笑的樣子, 就感到滿足了. 自從認識了素以後, 他的生活變得豐富多采, 素的笑容和關懷已經把他原本的灰色世界塗成色彩繽紛的樂園.
「傻瓜, 你的生日我又怎會不記得...」 雖然初次遇見素的時候只是三個月以前, 但文可以肯定的是, 他已經完全地愛上了素了. 當他第一次看到素的時候, 他就知道, 素是他的唯一.
素無言, 只是含笑, 低頭看著文送的生日蛋糕.
「這個蛋糕好美哦, 你在哪買的?」 素細緻的臉孔上, 那雙又大又清澈的眼睛望著文.
「是我自己親手弄的, 如果你想吃的話, 我每天做一個給你吃也沒有問題!」文真心地說, 並在心裡對自己說, 要為她而學做最好吃的奶油蛋糕.
「那你可以教我弄嗎? 我想做給我的朋友吃, 他也很喜歡吃奶油蛋糕的!」 素聽到文的說話以後, 想起了羽, 便想給他一個驚喜.
「朋友? 甚麼朋友啊? 可以告訴我嗎?」 文覺得有點好奇, 於是隨口問問.
「噢, 沒事沒事. 只是一個普通的朋友而已.」 素搖搖頭, 罷罷手, 可是她那粉紅的面頰卻出賣了她了.
「是男朋友吧?」 文看到, 但卻假裝不介意, 故作輕鬆地問.
「不是啦! 我告訴你好了, 可是你不可以告訴別人喔!」 素笑得更甜蜜了, 完全察覺不到文的臉已經變色.
文點點頭.
「是素暗戀的人啦!」 文從來沒有看過素這麼幸福的樣子. 而素上一秒鐘所說的話在他腦裡迴響. 他完全不能思想, 腦海變得一片空白.
待續...
標籤： 黑白愛情
L愛ve ends @12/23/2008
.2008年12月22日 星期一 ' ♥
♥ : 剩下的九天
時間飛逝......
這麼快就一年了...
覺得2008年是我最美好的一年.
飄翔, 你還記得2007年時候我告訴你...今年我要過得好快樂嗎?
我真的做到了.
今年...我沒有遺憾.
我對於今年所發生的一切...都沒有怨恨.
今年認識了許多朋友...
大家都陪了我經歷了許多事情.
而且...今年, 時間證明了我和飄翔、筱雨的友情.
我們一起都經歷了許多事情,
緣份始終把我們拉在一起.
今年我終於有一次機會, 可以跟他開始.
雖然結局和我想像的一樣...
可是我沒有後悔.
因為我知道, 我跟他真的已經是過去式了.
所以我可以, 好好地放開.
明年, 我將會期代更好的事情發生.
明年開始要考試了.
我要好好地讀書, 不可以再像今年這樣玩了.
今年的收穫真的很多.
我這個月來, 想通了許多事情...
到了最後...
我終於明白...甚麼事情對我來說最寶貴.
甚麼事情我最不容許失去...
剩下的九天...2008年的最後幾天...
我希望可以好好善用時間.
好好地寫一首歌,
聽著音樂看書,..
享受著2008年的最後幾天...
最近的靈感回來了耶~
我想這幾天我可以多寫幾篇故事~ ^^
這麼快就一年了...
覺得2008年是我最美好的一年.
飄翔, 你還記得2007年時候我告訴你...今年我要過得好快樂嗎?
我真的做到了.
今年...我沒有遺憾.
我對於今年所發生的一切...都沒有怨恨.
今年認識了許多朋友...
大家都陪了我經歷了許多事情.
而且...今年, 時間證明了我和飄翔、筱雨的友情.
我們一起都經歷了許多事情,
緣份始終把我們拉在一起.
今年我終於有一次機會, 可以跟他開始.
雖然結局和我想像的一樣...
可是我沒有後悔.
因為我知道, 我跟他真的已經是過去式了.
所以我可以, 好好地放開.
明年, 我將會期代更好的事情發生.
明年開始要考試了.
我要好好地讀書, 不可以再像今年這樣玩了.
今年的收穫真的很多.
我這個月來, 想通了許多事情...
到了最後...
我終於明白...甚麼事情對我來說最寶貴.
甚麼事情我最不容許失去...
剩下的九天...2008年的最後幾天...
我希望可以好好善用時間.
好好地寫一首歌,
聽著音樂看書,..
享受著2008年的最後幾天...
最近的靈感回來了耶~
我想這幾天我可以多寫幾篇故事~ ^^
標籤： 雜談
L愛ve ends @12/22/2008
.2008年12月20日 星期六 ' ♥
♥ : 朋友
說我是你的好朋友...
說你不懂得如何再次相信我...
說會害怕我出賣你...
那你自己呢? 你懂得關心我嗎?
你不相信我...是因為我們當初太草率就選擇了做好朋友嗎?
有多少次...
你這樣冷漠地走過...
有多少次...
你喜歡就把我拉走...
不想再和你說話...
不要告訴我...你珍惜我們這段友情...
因為...
你沒有相信我...
你在懷疑我的時候...沒有告訴我...
你所說的一切...只會傷害著我...
我痛...不是因為你不相信我...
我痛...是因為當你在懷疑著我的時候...你沒有問清楚...
你選擇做的...是在有問題的時候逃避...
我真的不值得相信嗎?
為甚麼你是這樣...她也是這樣...?
根本就不明白我...
你讓我知道...友情是如何的脆弱...
她的加入...就可以讓我們的友情破裂...
那是因為我們的友情太過脆弱...
還是因為...我們根本就沒有想像的好..
我把你當作好朋友...是我錯了
我去幫你問她事情...是我錯了
一切都當作是我的錯...好嗎?
說甚麼好朋友?
說甚麼這可能會傷害我...
看到你這封信...淚不止地落下...
是我太軟弱嗎? 總是給不同的事情傷害到我...
總是無法讓淚停止.
應該對你死心...
還是應該...在你身邊...繼續守候?
對不起...因為我根本不知道你需要我...
你從來沒有說過...
對不起...因為我根本不知道你懷疑我...
你從來沒有提過...
你也許...不想傷害這段友情...
你希望...可以把事情慢慢淡化...
你希望...可以和我做回好朋友...
我明白的...
可是你..好像不能再次相信我...
我明白的...
無論....怎樣也好...
謝謝你...在我生命裡出現過...
以後的我...還是選擇做回自己...
縱使...這樣可能會讓我...失去一些不相信我的朋友...
我的想法...希望你明白.
我笑...沒有遺憾...
不需要感到內疚...
我原諒你...因為...你是我的朋友.
傷痛...有一天會慢慢淡化...
有一天...我會忘記...
謝謝這段友情.
♥愛你.
說你不懂得如何再次相信我...
說會害怕我出賣你...
那你自己呢? 你懂得關心我嗎?
你不相信我...是因為我們當初太草率就選擇了做好朋友嗎?
有多少次...
你這樣冷漠地走過...
有多少次...
你喜歡就把我拉走...
不想再和你說話...
不要告訴我...你珍惜我們這段友情...
因為...
你沒有相信我...
你在懷疑我的時候...沒有告訴我...
你所說的一切...只會傷害著我...
我痛...不是因為你不相信我...
我痛...是因為當你在懷疑著我的時候...你沒有問清楚...
你選擇做的...是在有問題的時候逃避...
我真的不值得相信嗎?
為甚麼你是這樣...她也是這樣...?
根本就不明白我...
你讓我知道...友情是如何的脆弱...
她的加入...就可以讓我們的友情破裂...
那是因為我們的友情太過脆弱...
還是因為...我們根本就沒有想像的好..
我把你當作好朋友...是我錯了
我去幫你問她事情...是我錯了
一切都當作是我的錯...好嗎?
說甚麼好朋友?
說甚麼這可能會傷害我...
看到你這封信...淚不止地落下...
是我太軟弱嗎? 總是給不同的事情傷害到我...
總是無法讓淚停止.
應該對你死心...
還是應該...在你身邊...繼續守候?
對不起...因為我根本不知道你需要我...
你從來沒有說過...
對不起...因為我根本不知道你懷疑我...
你從來沒有提過...
你也許...不想傷害這段友情...
你希望...可以把事情慢慢淡化...
你希望...可以和我做回好朋友...
我明白的...
可是你..好像不能再次相信我...
我明白的...
無論....怎樣也好...
謝謝你...在我生命裡出現過...
以後的我...還是選擇做回自己...
縱使...這樣可能會讓我...失去一些不相信我的朋友...
我的想法...希望你明白.
我笑...沒有遺憾...
不需要感到內疚...
我原諒你...因為...你是我的朋友.
傷痛...有一天會慢慢淡化...
有一天...我會忘記...
謝謝這段友情.
♥愛你.
let things keep fading away...until i see the true colour of things...
標籤： 心情
L愛ve ends @12/20/2008
.2008年12月17日 星期三 ' ♥
♥ : 懂愛的人
<<儘管我或不能令你為我而笑, 但我一定不會令你為我而哭.>>
----------童話休止符
他, 不計較付出.
他, 不介意一無所有.
他, 願意用盡所有的精力去愛.
這樣的人, 是懂愛的人.
他得不到愛情, 卻明白愛情.
他希望的, 是有一天愛的人會回心轉意.
他等的, 是一段不可能的感情.
所有認識他的人都說他笨,
建議應該儘早放棄.
可是他不聽, 堅持己見.
他從不讓你為他而哭.
他只想看到你的笑容.
在你無助的時候, 總有他的出現.
暴風雨下有他的傘為你擋雨.
陽光下, 有你和他重疊的影子.
他告訴你, 夢不遙遠. 只要相信.
他教曉了你如何去愛.
他心疼你的淚.
可是你, 從不愛過他.
愛情讓人最心疼的事情是...該愛的不去愛...不該愛卻狠狠地愛...
到了最後,
懂愛的人學會了愛.
而你, 學會珍惜...
標籤： 雜談
L愛ve ends @12/17/2008
.2008年12月11日 星期四 ' ♥
♥ : 感謝
感謝所有的朋友...特別是筱雨和飄翔...
陪我渡過難關.
最近每天早上也跟飄翔跑步...
哈哈...其實那怎算是跑步呢..
我們每一天都...散步..
因為我們實在跑步了嘛~
不過飄翔可以每一天準時起來..
然後準時到達我們約好的地方...
其實也是挺神奇的..
哈哈~
對不起咯飄翔...
不過希望我們這個假期每一天也能這樣子啦.
假期了~
我想今個假期我要好好利用.
筱雨不用擔心我...
我其實真的不是因為失戀才變成這樣子..
不過我想, 既然是假期...我應該好好利用...
把自己好好增值...
所以才做會用這個假期做好多好多的事...
包括跑步...
並不是因為我的刺激太大哦..
我開始學習放開了...
明白到自己沒有錯...
所以...我會沒有關係的啦.
祝福了, 將來我會認識一個更愛我的人呢~
把話說回來...
唉唷...我好希望可以出去玩哦~ ><
陪我渡過難關.
最近每天早上也跟飄翔跑步...
哈哈...其實那怎算是跑步呢..
我們每一天都...散步..
因為我們實在跑步了嘛~
不過飄翔可以每一天準時起來..
然後準時到達我們約好的地方...
其實也是挺神奇的..
哈哈~
對不起咯飄翔...
不過希望我們這個假期每一天也能這樣子啦.
假期了~
我想今個假期我要好好利用.
筱雨不用擔心我...
我其實真的不是因為失戀才變成這樣子..
不過我想, 既然是假期...我應該好好利用...
把自己好好增值...
所以才做會用這個假期做好多好多的事...
包括跑步...
並不是因為我的刺激太大哦..
我開始學習放開了...
明白到自己沒有錯...
所以...我會沒有關係的啦.
祝福了, 將來我會認識一個更愛我的人呢~
把話說回來...
唉唷...我好希望可以出去玩哦~ ><
標籤： 心情
L愛ve ends @12/11/2008
.2008年12月5日 星期五 ' ♥
♥ : 閉上眼睛以後
天空....突然也沉重了下來.
濃黑的浮雲所繒成的一副畫,
每一刻也快將掉下來的樣子.
壓抑著這感覺, 用力地擁抱著回憶
好像, 還接受不了現實
總是以為機會還多的是
縱使努力, 身邊盛下的只有空氣了
那一種熟悉的味道 彷彿你還沒有離開我
可是 現在這種感覺 讓我覺得很陌生
漸漸地, 遺忘了
彼此也不大記得 以前的悲傷
所有的付出 化為了泡沫
跌倒了沒有關係 重要的是 可以重新站起來
受傷了沒有關係 重要的是 傷口可以再次復原
水晶玻璃的心 破了 是否還可以重組?
也許我們的心 不是玻璃 而是 水
溶化了 可以再一次 傾住
沒有關係 機會還多的是
沒有關係 痛是痛 可是我也要繼續生活
祝 你幸福快樂
祝 我幸福快樂
我們也不是對方的全部
也永遠不會是對方的全部
可是 沒有關係
因為我們愛了
擁抱了你最後一次
說了愛你最後一次
所有的回憶 已經足夠了
雖然短暫 好像 流星一樣 瞬間飛逝
雖然美麗 可是 觸不到 碰不到
黑暗裡 我們都嘗試過 尋找對方
可是 我們卻迷失了
愛你 在淚落下的一刻消失
思念 在輕輕放下愛的一秒流走
我們不可以挽著手 一直走下去
可是我從不後悔 也很感謝
讓我有一次懂愛的機會
我們就到這 不需悲哀
我們就到這 淚流了
我們就到這 好好地繼續了
我們在 交叉點 分手了
不痛 不悔
濃黑的浮雲所繒成的一副畫,
每一刻也快將掉下來的樣子.
壓抑著這感覺, 用力地擁抱著回憶
好像, 還接受不了現實
總是以為機會還多的是
縱使努力, 身邊盛下的只有空氣了
那一種熟悉的味道 彷彿你還沒有離開我
可是 現在這種感覺 讓我覺得很陌生
漸漸地, 遺忘了
彼此也不大記得 以前的悲傷
所有的付出 化為了泡沫
跌倒了沒有關係 重要的是 可以重新站起來
受傷了沒有關係 重要的是 傷口可以再次復原
水晶玻璃的心 破了 是否還可以重組?
也許我們的心 不是玻璃 而是 水
溶化了 可以再一次 傾住
沒有關係 機會還多的是
沒有關係 痛是痛 可是我也要繼續生活
祝 你幸福快樂
祝 我幸福快樂
我們也不是對方的全部
也永遠不會是對方的全部
可是 沒有關係
因為我們愛了
擁抱了你最後一次
說了愛你最後一次
所有的回憶 已經足夠了
雖然短暫 好像 流星一樣 瞬間飛逝
雖然美麗 可是 觸不到 碰不到
黑暗裡 我們都嘗試過 尋找對方
可是 我們卻迷失了
愛你 在淚落下的一刻消失
思念 在輕輕放下愛的一秒流走
我們不可以挽著手 一直走下去
可是我從不後悔 也很感謝
讓我有一次懂愛的機會
我們就到這 不需悲哀
我們就到這 淚流了
我們就到這 好好地繼續了
我們在 交叉點 分手了
不痛 不悔
最後一篇 寫給你的話了
你要好好保重
我們都要努力 堅強地生活.
標籤： 心情
L愛ve ends @12/05/2008
.2008年12月4日 星期四 ' ♥
♥ : 放假啦~
放假了~ 放假了~
現在的心情很興奮呢!!!!
雖然還不知道這個假期可以幹甚麼~
可是我還是很期待的呢.
星期六到飄翔家玩!! ^^
好棒哦...
我們的筱雨不可以來.
啦啦啦~ 哈哈.
[[對不起哦各位, 現在的亦希生病了+失戀, 所以容許我一下吧] ^^
筱雨...你要好好地去玩+吃+睡覺哦~
在地球另外一邊的我們也會與你做相同的東西哦.
當你回來的時候, 會看見一個全新的亦希哦. ^^
大家也要開開心心的哦. ^^
現在的心情很興奮呢!!!!
雖然還不知道這個假期可以幹甚麼~
可是我還是很期待的呢.
星期六到飄翔家玩!! ^^
好棒哦...
我們的筱雨不可以來.
啦啦啦~ 哈哈.
[[對不起哦各位, 現在的亦希生病了+失戀, 所以容許我一下吧] ^^
筱雨...你要好好地去玩+吃+睡覺哦~
在地球另外一邊的我們也會與你做相同的東西哦.
當你回來的時候, 會看見一個全新的亦希哦. ^^
大家也要開開心心的哦. ^^
標籤： 雜談
L愛ve ends @12/04/2008
.2008年12月1日 星期一 ' ♥
♥ : 愛了. 完了.
因為愛過...所以沒有後悔.
她踏進校園, 猶豫著是否應該把話說出口.
天空是慰藍的, 而她從一開始到現在, 對他的愛也沒有變.
可是, 她累了.
「我們的關係適合做男女朋友. 因為我喜歡你, 你給我的感覺也是一樣.」
這, 是他寫給她的一封信. 兩年前的等待和愛, 讓她答應了.
之後的, 是戀愛的起點.
她走著走著, 不知道這樣是否是對的.
友人對她說, 把硬幣拋出去, 由緣分做選擇.
她冷靜下來, 可是, 無論把硬幣拋下多少次,
她明白自己, 心裡的不捨.
「我愛你.」 一句這樣簡單的宣告, 已經可以讓她更愛他.
他們倆個擁抱著, 好像, 永遠也不要分開.
無奈下, 她把硬幣放下.
面對的, 是他的冷淡.
她不明白, 為甚麼他可以假裝看她不見.
也不明白, 為甚麼他們可以這麼久, 沒有給對方打電話.
也不明白, 為甚麼他們有這麼久沒有牽過手.
等待著的她, 不知道應該如何去分手.
其實...那是不想離開的藉口.
可是, 不分開, 還有其他更好的辦法嗎?
「一生一世是不可能的. 所以我不會答應你.」
那是失望, 可是, 是一句很真實的句子.
她沒有說甚麼, 靜靜地聽著他所說的話.
她決定了分開.
可是, 同時間又很猶豫.
同一天, 她哭了兩次.
為了一個抉擇而哭.
「放學後, 請你等我一下.」 她對他說了. 不知道為甚麼, 就是想在他離開以前, 見他一面.
如果真的要說的話, 也可以把話說出來.
「如果有一天我們分開了, 我一定要先說分手.」 她看著他, 笑了. 但隨著感情的退色, 她心裡突然間有一點痛.
「為甚麼?」 他好奇地問.
「因為以前你戀愛, 每一次也是你說分手啊.」 她開玩笑地說, 可是她知道, 那是因為她希望他可以不說分手.
街道上, 她想著. 然後動搖了.
突然間, 他突然出現.
「剛剛你說有事跟我說, 是甚麼?」 他問.
她知道, 她說不出口.
所以, 她擁抱著他, 說了「我好愛你.」
那是不理會. 她不知道為甚麼, 只好每一天在他身旁等著他.
等的, 是一句話.
等的, 是一個笑容.
也許, 時間久了, 愛情會淡化.
他把她的手輕輕放下. 她, 明白了.
「我...我想...」 他慢慢地說.
「分手?」 她接受了現實了.
「嗯.」 他默默地點頭. 「我覺得我給不了你需要的.」
她...沈默了.
「如果我和你分手了...我們還是朋友嗎」 她小心翼翼地問他.
「你覺得呢?」
「可以...那你呢?」
「我不知道.」
那是, 失去以前的前奏.
「其實...我也覺得分手比較適合. 因為...我真的等你等得很辛苦了.」 之後她冷靜下來. 可是, 淚不止地落下了.
她和他一起走回學校.
最後...她給了一個為他而做的東西.
擁抱著他.
<<我捨不得....最後一次抱緊你了.>>
愛了這麼久...
等了這麼久...
也許...這樣的結局...比較適合.
end of love story @ 2.12 the 190th day
標籤： 心情
L愛ve ends @12/01/2008
